This morning, the sun is burning down on the lawn, but last night the ground was shining and wet and deliciously cool. We had another rainfall, bringing the week's rain to about an inch and a quarter, more than the previous two months combined. It's a great blessing and even if we don't have more for awhile, it's enough to keep things from dying for a little longer. Drought is a slow-motion disaster. It sneaks up on you, you barely realize it's happening until you're in trouble, like the frog who's put into cold water and slowly brought to a boil. And there's so little to be done: you can't hide in the basement or stand in a door frame or pack up your car and drive inland. I've lived through two other major droughts in other places, and one thing that has made a big impression on me is how drought doesn't just exhaust the land and flora and fauna: it creeps into your psyche and wears away at your hope. And when a drought breaks... I can't even describe it, but it's beautiful.
So here are a few observations from the farm, because I want a record for myself. I hope I can come back in a few months and sigh with relief at how things have changed for the better.
* In the morning, there's a smell like when you're buried in a pile of fallen sycamore leaves in November. But it's everywhere, and it's coming from the dead grass. Walking on the grass is like going out in a frost in January: it's stiff, it crunches and breaks under your feet. The color of the grass in the pastures isn't the yellowish grey-brown of winter though. It's a dead brown, almost black in places, with the dirt showing through. There's a lot of dust.
* The leaves of the dogwood trees are half shriveled and crunchy brown. It's not like fall, when they hold their shape and slowly turn streaked red then maroon and orange, then fall from the tree. These are still a weak green where they're connected to the tree, but dessicated and grey-brown at the tips.
* In 1997, I planted a lot of hostas around the bases of the trees in the front yard. After that first year, they never got a bit of attention and certainly were never watered, but they've survived, spread and thrived in the 14 years since then. This year it looks like they're gone.
* The grasshoppers are amazing, both size and number. I don't know if this is unusual, or I just notice them more because of the lack of grass. When you walk, dozens of the huge critters scatter, sometimes landing on clothes. I'm glad for my sunglasses and hat.
* There are few cattle. The farmers have sold off their herds because they can't feed them. Normally, in the spring and summer the cattle and horses get fat on grass and the farmers make hay from the tall fescue, at least three crops worth. Then in the winter when there's less forage, they feed the cows the summer's hay. This year, the farmers got one crop of hay in May if they were lucky, but in June the rain stopped and no more grass grew. They've fed the winter's hay to the cattle already and now there's almost nothing left. They could buy more, but other regions are suffering as well, so anything that's out there to buy is too expensive. So they have to get rid of their herds.
None of these things are conditions I've ever seen before. In any other drought year, I'd say from experience that most things will be back in the spring. You just have faith through the winter rains and wait for the green buds to start peeking out in March and April, for blades of new grass to come up in the brittle lawns and bare pastures. But this year my faith is wavering. What if this year is different and all bets are off? I don't know which trees will actually survive or if the lawn is gone for good. For the first time I genuinely worry about forest fires.
( Photos )But there are still little signs of hope. A month ago I noticed that my five-year old oak tree (actually a pair of oaks planted together) was dying -- one of the trees had turned completely brown. It's old enough, it should have good deep roots by now, but my dad started watering it anyway. When I returned to the farm, I saw that all the dead leaves had dropped and new, spring-colored green leaves had come on. It looks like
it's going to make it.
